Can you believe how great this Santa looks?

I made peace with not nursing Sam anymore and I would say that I am 75% excited about stopping. To wean her I started cutting back on pumping at work and in the evening but still nursing her two to three times per day and over the weekend she started nursing again. What the F@*k. What I am suppose to do now. Start back up or quit? She’s not even a teenager and she is already giving me a hard time. I think I am going to keep going especially after spending $23.00 for formula that I think only last 4 days.

Also, I started running (I had decided not to worry about exercise while I was nursing to reduce stress). I ran ½ mile on Sunday and 1 mile on Monday plus walking. My brother asked if I would be interested in running a ½ marathon in April. I am not sure it can be done, but I am going to try.

Sammie's first Christmas

I am done!!!! There I said it and this time I mean it. Three strikes equal an out in baseball so I figure that three strikes with lactation are the same. Sam isn’t nursing anymore. Well to be honest she might nurse for five minutes. My co-worker that is a lactation consultant said (4 weeks ago) that she might be self-weaning. I didn’t want to hear that so I ignored her, then on the 27th we took Sam for her 9 month check up and she LOST weight! The pediatrician said pretty much the say thing “you should be proud that you made it this long” that is strike two if you are counting. Still not wanting to hear this I called the hospital that Sam was born in and asked the lactation consultant what should I do to increase her nursing time. Strike three; she said I should be proud of all of my hard work and that I could keep pumping for the next three months if I wanted her to get mostly breast milk. Well, let me just tell you that not only is pumping a big old pain in my ass it isn’t good at extracting the milk. That means that when I just pump for more than a few days it goes ways. So, my baby is growing up no mater how hard I try to stop it.
On a side note we put up our tree last night and when we turned off the house lights and turned on the tree Sam’s expression was priceless. She loves her tree. I will post picture later.

Get this…..
Sam has not been nursing for as long has she used to.
Before she would nurse for a good 40 minutes then around 6 months she dropped down to maybe 20-30 minutes total and that was great. But, sometime about a month ago she has dropped down to MAYBE 5 minutes. Sometimes in the morning she will nurse for 10 minutes if I am lucky. I ask a coworker who is a lactation consultant and she said that Sammie might be self weaning. I decided to keep on trying to breast feed. Last night at her 9 month check up her weight dropped. That is right she lost weight! I asked her doctor about the nursing issue and she said the same thing about the self weaning. I thought I made it through all of the breastfeeding struggles and issues and it was suppose to be easy sailing until 1 year. I think about quitting all of the time, but I never once thought Sam was thinking about quitting.
No matter what look how cute she is.

Sam loves all things Shrek and she has not even seen the movie.

Grossing me out!
Sam has her first of many colds and I feel like a bad mom because it is totally grossing me out. I can handle any diaper and the spit up didn’t really bother me but apparently snot is breaking point. It is just running out of her nose none stop. I don’t want to piss her off by wiping every 10 seconds and for the most part it doesn’t seem to bother her. But, uck sometime she gets it on her hand before I can wipe it off and then she touches whatever and it makes me a little sick to my stomach. I guess that I am snot sensitive.

Sam's banana

Sam eating a banana, or trying to at least.

Sam's new floors

I had a great birthday. Thank you to all of you that made it to the party. Check out a few pictures.

MSR and Alison

Shane and Ernie

Keith KMO Kathy and Justin

Billie, Carrie Kathy

Grandpa and Sammie

Karin and Billie

Kristy, Elaine, Angie and Laura

Carrie, Justin and Shane

Jim and Carrie

Keith and Roger

Becky and Carrie

Carrie and her Goose

Sammie's first Halloween.

It looks like Sam is pushing Ruby, but it was a love push.

Sam was a ghost and Ruby was a cat.

Well the big day isn’t far away, but I don’t feel like anything big is going to happen. If you believe that you are only as old as you feel I am 18. Looking back on the last 30 years I realize how lucky I am. Let’s recap….
I don’t remember much before 5 but I do remember falling down the stairs while my brother and neighbor Tim were watching me. To stop me from crying they gave me my old binky. (Please note that my brother didn’t push I just fell). I remember eating Charles Chips out of the can (remember they came in bags inside the can). I have a few memories of my babysitter Queeny and her black hair and 70s style décor.
I went to a good elementary. I think my Grandma came and fixed bread with the class once. I sailed a lot and played with my cousins and my parent’s friend’s children. Now knowing how hard life can be I consider myself lucky that I didn’t have any worries has a child. So many kids today don’t have two parents or any parents at home and they have to worry about where their food is going to come from. My biggest problem was I had to clean up my room before the clean lady came and my mom and dad didn’t take me to Hawaii when they went. How lucky was I?
Being a teenager wasn’t as easy (ask my mom) but I didn’t drop out of school or become addicted to drugs or alcohol. Also, I think that I had fun a few times. I made friends that I am proud to say are still my friends today some thirteen years later (Seckman Bs).
High school was FUN. Still again I was lucky to go to a good school, make wonderful friends that I still hang out with and live in a safe neighborhood. I had anything and everything I needed. Sure they were a few high school stresses but looking back I had it GREAT.
College wasn’t always easy but some where along the line my parents taught me about hard work and what it takes to get something you want. I made so many great friends that are still my friends today. This is also the time in my life when I met Shane. I still remember the exact moment I realized he liked me. I remember how comfortable I was with him and how we just seemed to fit together on our very first date. I couldn’t tell you the exact moment I fell in love but I don’t ever remember not loving Shane.
Then all of the sudden I put on a cap and gown and POOF I am an adult. Luckily I found a job that I loved and spent 5 wonderful years there making friendships that will last a life time. We bought our first home and then got married. I still think of October 23, 2004 as one of my best days. Having all of our friends and family together to celebrate our love was so much fun, plus my dress was killer. We bought our current house only a few years later and surprise, about two weeks after we moved in we found out I was pregnant. (I knew there was a reason that I didn’t feel like unpacking besides just being lazy). Most of you followed my pregnancy right here, pretending like you saw a baby in the ultrasounds I posted. I am tempted to say that the last 8 months have been the most exciting of all my 30 years but that isn’t to say that great things didn’t happen to me before Sam was born.
Samantha is 8 months old now and I am just now starting to feel like MAYBE I am not a complete idiot. One of the many things I have learned in the last 8 months is that you can never truly understand how much your parents love you until you have your own child. Don’t get me wrong before Sam was born I knew how great my parents were it is just more powerful now.
When you watch TV you see just how many crazy people there are in this world and I realize that could be any of us. I just so happened to be lucky to have great parents, a wonderful husband, a loving extended family, a amazing group of friends and pretty fanatic child. You may not believe in God but if you think about someone like me and my life you have to say I am truly blessed. Because the people that normally read this blog are my friends and family I wanted to take this opportunity to thank you for everything you have ever done for me. Each of you has taught me something that has shaped the person I am today. Please know that I am truly grateful to have you all in my life. Also, I hope that I have positively affected your life. I realized not to long ago (and I am not scared to admit) that I love to laugh and make other people laugh. Their isn’t much that makes me more happy than seeing my friends and family smile or laugh, so I hope that at some point in our relationship you have had a good laugh!!!!

Sam sitting up with one of her new favorite toys from Great Uncle Terry and Great Aunt Sally.

Sam's 8 month picture with her friend the hippo. She is so big now that they don't fit on the chair together.

Shane and Sam at Elephant Rock, 2007

Sam and Tuesday

Samanthan and her cousin Jayden at their first wedding.

The coldest weekend in September at Bunker Hill with the Allens. Sammie's first swing. Everyone had a great time.

Check out Melody and Jeff's blog.

http://babykesstwo.blogspot.com/

The new job is going well. My first day out to a school they had a lice scare!!!! Don’t worry it was a negative on the lice. I really do miss my friends/coworkers from Food Outreach, but since I have been gone I have seen everyone two times and I am going back Friday to do a little reporting!!!
We finally have our hardwood floors in and it is about time. After Shane, Ernie and my dad worked like crazy to pull up the old (NASTY DIRTY ASS) carpet we wanted for 3 weeks for the wood to come in. Then after if finally arrived we had to wait another week for the wood to get comfortable in our house (adjust to the humidity). Then we had to live with my parents and Matt and Becky’s house while we waited for the smell to go away. We ended up waiting twice as long because there were a few spots that Shane didn’t like. Luckily my parents and Matt and Becky still like us. I do have to admit that the floors look beautiful. Now I just have to get everything clean again.
Sorry I don’t have any new pictures to share. I will have some next week.

Sam

Sam

Happy Baby

Sam is watching me dance. (Look at Shane's smile)

Girls Weekend 2007

I think that everyone had a great time. I know that I did.

Happy Baby.

I am done. I just don’t think I can breastfeed anymore. It is so much work and I am not even producing that much. So much for nature and all that crap I had nothing but formula and I think you will all agree that I turned out just fine.

First food.

Samantha had her first taste of vegetables last Saturday. She tried carrots and next she will have sweet potatoes. I don’t know who had more fun her or me.

The other night I found Shane and Sammie watching the baseball game together.

I did it! I exercised!!!!!
I have the Weatherholt treadmill on loan so I can walk in the morning or evening while Samantha sleeps. Last night I walked for 50 minutes and today I got up at 5 and walked for 33 minutes. I don't think I have exercised once since I came back to work, so that would be 3.5 months of no exercise.

Her fist time sitting up all by herself. She is starting to ready enjoy her bath.

tennis dress

Date 7/15/07

Orange is her color.

These are her 5 month hippo pictures. She will be 5 months on Wednesday.

Thursday July 5th Samantha tried Rice Cereal for the first time. She didn't really care for it very much and I don't think she got much in her mouth. We'll try again later.

Pool time

Samantha's first dip in the pool.

Giggles

Sam's Blocks

It was too cold to get in the water but Sam was ready to swim.














She had her first visit to the ZOO this weekend.

Introducing Ruby June!
Born 6/27/07 around 6:15 (not sure on exact time)
She weights 6 pounds 5 ounces and is 20 inches long. Mother and baby are doing great. I think that Becky was only in labor for about 6-7 hours.
Ruby has a ton of dark brown hair. I think it is about an inch long.

Getting old really sucks and watching your loved ones go through it is horrible.
For those of you reading this, if you are having a good day, feeling young and chipper enjoy it to the fullest. Even if you aren't feeling as chipper as you used to still get out and enjoy the ability to walk. (Sorry if this is too sad, it is a sad day)

Check out this link.

http://www.laduenews.com/june15_07/p6_sm.htm

Today Samantha is 4 months old. It seems like over night she started to really reach out and grab stuff. We got this picture yesterday after a long day out for Father's Day. She is loven' those rings that hang down from the car seat.

I don't know how in the world I got so lucky but I am thankful.

A MUST HAVE that you don't really need. Thanks Grandma and Grandpa A. Sam lover her chair.

Count Down to Ruby June.
My best friend has less than 5 weeks before she has her baby. So as many of you know it could be any day now. I am so excited for her, I can't wait. I will post a picture ASAP.

On another note......
I am so tired all of the time. I know that every one says it is because of the baby but I didn't think it would make me this tired. For instance yesterday when I left work I was so fatigued that I didn't feel like driving. Then when I got home I wanted to call my bf but my arms felt too heavy to lift and pick up the phone. I feel bad complaining to Shane because he works hard all day and then he comes home and cuts the grass for four hours. (he does sit for most of it, but it is still work). I am getting good sleep. I get 6-6.5 hours a night (I use to get 8 pre baby) but I just don't think the loss of two hours a night would make me feel this way. Also, I am freaking out because it is like my breast milk is going away. I am trying not to stress about it, I know that makes it worse. I added another pump at work and I have been pumping after her 10 meal at night. I have been eating enough. But, listen I could go on and on about this and it would change a thing. I just need an extra 4 hours in each day.

Four generations of Weatherholts.

How cute is Great-Grandma Weatherholt