Look at my mad pineapple cutting skills.

Now I am ready to have a Baby Shower.

This is Sam having fun with Grandma.

Well it is the second week and I haven't cried yet so that is something. We had the BEST weekend. On Saturday we stayed at home all day and ate, played and slept. Before I use to look forward to the weekend and the evening but now it means so much more to be at home it is hard to put into words. Sam came to work with me this morning and went home with Grandma so I got to spend more time with her this morning.

So, I am back at work now! It is hard to be here I can't imagine what it is like for people that don't like their job or the people they work with. I love it here but I want nothing more than to be at home. I hope this gets easier. If not I am not sure how long I can take this. It isn't just that I don't get to spend time with Samantha it is everything. When am I supposed to clean the house, fix diner or go to the store. If I do any of that it takes away from what little time I have with her. It didn't help that my car broke down this week and we had to spend time dealing with that. PS I got a new car. Anyway to be completely honest it is like why do people even have kids if they can't spend any time with them. IT SUCKS. Before I had her I never thought I wanted to stay at home but now I wish I could and hate that I can't. It is so weird because everything people tell you about having a kid is true but you can't really know what it means until you have one. I love her more than anything and I just want to hang out with her. I wish I could go back to February 18th knowing what I know now. Okay I will stop bitching about this.

Here is the Hippo picture for 12 weeks.

I tried sitting Sam up with the hippo but....

It didn't work out like I wanted.