Look at my mad pineapple cutting skills.

Now I am ready to have a Baby Shower.

This is Sam having fun with Grandma.

Well it is the second week and I haven't cried yet so that is something. We had the BEST weekend. On Saturday we stayed at home all day and ate, played and slept. Before I use to look forward to the weekend and the evening but now it means so much more to be at home it is hard to put into words. Sam came to work with me this morning and went home with Grandma so I got to spend more time with her this morning.

So, I am back at work now! It is hard to be here I can't imagine what it is like for people that don't like their job or the people they work with. I love it here but I want nothing more than to be at home. I hope this gets easier. If not I am not sure how long I can take this. It isn't just that I don't get to spend time with Samantha it is everything. When am I supposed to clean the house, fix diner or go to the store. If I do any of that it takes away from what little time I have with her. It didn't help that my car broke down this week and we had to spend time dealing with that. PS I got a new car. Anyway to be completely honest it is like why do people even have kids if they can't spend any time with them. IT SUCKS. Before I had her I never thought I wanted to stay at home but now I wish I could and hate that I can't. It is so weird because everything people tell you about having a kid is true but you can't really know what it means until you have one. I love her more than anything and I just want to hang out with her. I wish I could go back to February 18th knowing what I know now. Okay I will stop bitching about this.

Here is the Hippo picture for 12 weeks.

I tried sitting Sam up with the hippo but....

It didn't work out like I wanted.

Okay I know I just had a baby 8 weeks ago but I feel fat and disgusting. I am trying to exercise but the weather has not been cooperating so I can walk with the baby. (I do have to say my parents have been great about watching her at their house) I have tried running but my knees HURT!!!! I can’t believe the pain. I tried warming up for 10 minutes the other day and the first two steps I took (running) were painful. It feels like I just finished running 26 miles. I tried resting and running less distance but nothing helped. I am trying to watch what I am eating but it is hard for several reasons.
For most of the day and night (Shane has been working a lot) I am alone with the food.
I am hungry, very hungry. I was never this hungry while I was pregnant.
If I don’t eat enough I don’t make enough milk and little missy is crabby and hungry.
I think the worst thing is I am only 5 pounds heavier than I was at my first doctor’s appointment in June but none of my old clothes fit! I am so much wider than I was before. I don’t think this clothes will ever fit. Even my tops don’t fit. They are too tight and short.
I only have 4 weeks until I have to go back to work and I don’t have anything to wear!!!! I don’t want to go out and buy clothes. Who wants to buy a bigger size when they know they have been a smaller size for almost all of their adult life.

Living large in Pevely.

Bath time fun and my first boom box.

My daughter's first running shoes.

I saw my doctor last Tuesday for the post delivery follow up and he cleared me to resume normal activities. So, on Thursday I went out with my brother and we went for a run at my parent’s house. It was splendid. We ran for about 30 minutes and walked for a while too. I was a little sore but it was a good sore. Then the next day Shane watched Samantha and I ran for 50 minutes around Pevely. It was marvelous. I forgot how much I love running. I stopped running when I was about 5 months pregnant so it has been at least 6 months since I ran last. On Saturday I was sore in places I haven’t been sore in forever. My stomach muscle hurt! I ran again today (Sunday) for 55 minutes the weather was wonderful. Go Cards!

Boys don’t read past here…..


For all of my girlfriends that run and have babies you will know what I am talking about.
I am happy to report no pee leaks.

How cute am I?

Miss Samantha had her one month doctor's appointment today and she did great.
She is up to 9lbs. 3oz. from two weeks ago at 8lbs. 1oz. (I guess she is getting enough to eat).
She is now 21 inches long from 19 at her birth. She is at the 50% for weight, length and head circumference. Sam did have to get a shot, but nurse Jane did it fast and she only cried for a minute.

Miss Samantha had her one month doctor's appointment today and she did great.
She is up to 9lbs. 3oz. from two weeks ago at 8lbs. 1oz. (I guess she is getting enough to eat).
She is now 21 inches long from 19 at her birth. She is at the 50% for weight, length and head circumference. Sam did have to get a shot, but nurse Jane did it fast and she only cried for a minute.

Bathtime.

I am not sure why these pictures are blurry. I am going to look into it.

I didn’t make it to the store on Monday. In the afternoon I started feeling horrible. My temperature went up and I was cold and hot all at the same time. Last Friday I noticed an infection so I called the doctor and got on some antibiotics. I felt pretty good over the weekend but Monday I felt like hell. I did make it to the store today but as soon as I got home I started to feel like hell again. The infection has gotten worse and I had a temp of 100.9 today. My doctor upped my pain meds and said if I don’t feel better by Thursday I have to go in for a visit.
Something good did happen today. Shane got off work early so we all got to hang out. I am very glad he was here I don’t feel good enough to take care of Samantha by myself.
I hope that all is well with everyone.

Update:
We had another doctor’s appointment yesterday and things are moving along. I am now 3 cm dilated but still 80% effaced. The new plan: the doctor is going to set up an induction for me one day next week, but hopefully I will go into labor on my own over the weekend. After the doctor’s visit Shane and I went to the mall and walked around for an hour. We are going to do the same tonight. They say it is going to snow on Saturday so maybe that will send me into labor.

Not much to report.
I know this will be my last Monday at work. We are closed next week and my doctor won’t let me go over my due date that long. I am feeling big and uncomfortable to be honest. It isn’t the end of the world but I am ready for normal breathing and stuff like getting up or out of bed without help. I am doing everything in my power to speed things up. I was at the gym this morning hoping to walk myself into labor. My next doctor’s visit is Thursday. Hopefully he will have better news at that visit.

Your Baby: Preparing For Labor
Fully developed and ready for birth, your baby will weigh somewhere between 6 and 9 pounds and will measure between 18 and 21 inches in length. When labor starts, your baby's body shifts gears to prepare for the journey. The fluid in the lungs is absorbed, airing out the lungs in preparation for breathing. The fetal hormones are on the rise to help maintain blood pressure and blood sugar levels after birth. It's showtime!

The people I work with are so nice. They knew I was bummed about being at work today and not at the hospital in labor so they got me this pretzel! Can you guess what it is?

Update
My parents made it home safely yesterday and I am sure they were shocked by the temperature change. My doctor’s visit was not as exciting as my parents return. I am dilated to 2.5 cm and 80% effaced. So, things are still happening, I just wanted them to happen a little faster. But, after about 3 hours of being bummed out I am over it. I am not that uncomfortable (it could always be worse). I enjoyed a bowl of cookies n’ cream ice cream last night, because I lost another pound (nothing to worry about) . I slept pretty well last night and I know this baby will come when it is good and ready.